Haha back to blogging! Currently in sch dam sianz lar Clementi ITE -.-! For our subject on OFFICE APPLICATIONS, bO teacher teach 1 lols! Every1 so slack while there some others so hardworking hah! For me half half lar half copy half ownself do trade with ppl to copy mah xD
Sianz still working everyday ppl ask me why i so much $$$ still work hah! I ask myself this question i also don know -.-! Sometime i feel that i no time of my own to do things of my own! hah! buay tahan liao if this continues! hah! Last week i bought 4 books from an online friends for $39.80. Not bad le i influence till half of the class want to read the book. Those books titles are Journey, You are here, A Photogenic Life, I believe you!~ If any1 need any of those books inform me xD. Hehe! Many things happen in sch also don feel like bring up if not ltr offend other ppl xD hah! Btw i just came cross some stuff which i feel quiet interesting in the book.

Here it goes!!!


We took a long walk along the beach, glancing out at the sea.The sun had just set, leaving a breathtaking image on the horizon. The currents of the sea slowly devoured the yellow light at the horizon. The tide was high, constantly threatening to push her tip to our feet.We chatted as we walked. Jacky told me more about his childhood and his mother. He said that he felt compelled to help others when he was young due to his father’s death. His father was his hero. I, having nothing to say about any hero, just told him more about Landy. I was about to mention one of Landy’s less desirable habits when he suddenly interrupted.“Can I hold your hand?” he said.I wanted to smile, to jump around in ecstasy and hug him tight, and then kiss him and tell him how delighted I am. However, I did none of the above. I balled my hand into a fist and snorted, “I only allow my boyfriend to hold my hand.”“Can I hold your hand?”I looked away from him, trying to find something to say. “You can’t be my boyfriend. You said that before. You’ve got your… reasons.”“Can I hold your hand?”Now I really felt like punching him. “No. Because only lovers hold hands. And we are not lovers.” Not yet.“Can I hold your hand?”“I am not your girlfriend. I cannot be, because I have this curse, and you’ve got your own reasons.”“Can I hold your hand?“Only if you’re my boyfriend and I’m your girlfriend, then we can.”“Can I hold your hand?”“Remember what you once said?” I bit my lips. I was staring at the ground, my heart beating a lot faster. My body seemed to jerk and I was blinking a lot faster than normal. “If we hold hands, your reputation will be spoilt. I don’t want to do that.”“Can I… hold your hand?” he repeated, this time weaker.I continued walking. This was getting nowhere. I turned to him, ready to scold him aloud when I stopped in my tracks.His eyes were red, and a few drops of tears were rolling off his eyes. He was breathing deeply. For the first time since I had known him, the tough and jovial Jacky was crying in front of me.

And he did not hold my hand. Instead, I held his and wiped off his tears. And as my blinking glistened back to normalcy, tears rolled out of my eyes as well and I jerked harder.We were like two scared, crying school kids who were lost. But when I felt his hand on mine, I felt no fear. Only warmth.
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We locked hands till we reached my house. Throughout the journey, we were silent, as if words had suddenly vanished from our mind. But when we reached my void deck, he released my hand and said, “Joanna, I’m always here. I’m always here, if you ever need me. Here.” He pointed to his heart.This time, I could no longer resist the urge to hug him. I wrapped my arms around him. The tough introvert Joanna was crying for the second time within a span of an hour. “Thanks” that was all I could manage to say.Jacky released me gently and took tissue paper to wipe off my tears. “Remember this. If you ever need me and I’m not around, just wait for me. Because I’ll always be here.”I nodded.“I am just like the sun and you the flower. I’ll provide sunlight for you to blossom. Sometimes, clouds will prevent me from reaching you. But you’ll know that I’m always trying to reach you. Just wait for the clouds to clear if you can’t receive my sunlight.”I nodded. If he kept on talking, I could flood the void deck with my tears.“Remember: To be happy, you either change the world, or you change your thinking. To be realistic, you have to change your thinking to be happy. But me, I will change the world for you.”I said nothing because my mouth had been choked with my sobbing.Gosh oh gosh. Don’t wake me up. Please, let time reach a standstill now. Right now. Gosh.

Extracted From: You are here =)

Just for those ppl!!

Every moment spent with you is like a beautiful dream come true...

My favorite place to be is inside of your hugs where it's warm and loving. I Love You!

Kiss me and you shall see stars, love me and I'll give them to you.

I love you with everything I am, and more than anyone ever thought possible...

You may not be here with me... But thoughts of you are always in my heart... I Miss You!



Just for ya!!!

Here I sit, thinking only of you
Wondering what is to become of us
Understanding all you have been through
Hoping to slowly gain your trust
My heart aches for you, and also I yearn
I want to understand you
In hopes that I will learn
Your unique and special qualities amaze me
Your smile
Your mind
Your voice and its beautiful sound
Your eyes
Your hair
Your ability to cheer me up
When you see that I am down
My feelings for you go beyond that of words
And at first it didn't seem real
But that just taught me a lesson
In doubting what I feel
It seems I dreamed you into life
And the reason for my stare
The bluest sky
The deepest sea
Don't even compare
And thoughts of you
Run through my head
Every hour of the day
I hope that you will understand
Just how I feel about you
I want to be your guiding hand
For all that you go through



What if u ever regreted?
Haha! Stay happy =)